I can’t.

I can’t. I have tried to write so many posts and it’s just too hard. Nothing measures up, nothing satisfies, inspires, nor interests me enough. I don’t have the inclination to discover the motivation needed to see it through. There’s no passion, atleast not enough to carry me to the end. Why? Why do i find myself here? When nothing fits and i just struggle. Everything i write seems terrible, useless, meaningless. I’m disgarding so many posts. I’m urging myself to write one more word. Write another, form a sentence. Somehow convince others you’re somewhat good at this writing business.

26 thoughts on “I can’t.

  1. Oh no! Please, don’t be pessimistic about your writings! I assure you, there are people out here who read whatever you feel like putting out, whatever you truly feel like expressing! So please don’t give up on us! ❀

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    1. Thankyou ❀ i just feel like i want to upload more regularly and i want them to be quality posts. I just struggle at times and i dont want to upload something im not happy with. But thankyou for your reassurance πŸ™‚ xx

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      1. Well, we all do, but I believe it is uch more important to upload genuine posts that you’re truly pround of that just posting in big quantities, basically just to post. For me, if a post is genuine and comes from the heart, then it’s a quality post. Don’t worry, you don’t have to upload just to upload, the people who are truly your followers will understand nonetheless. πŸ™‚

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      2. This is completely how i feel! I cant upload something unless i know i really put effort into and felt passionate about it. Its balancing not taking forever to write a piece I’m happy with and still having the quality in it. I see so many people upload so regularly, the amount change and re edit mine i couldn’t see myself achieving that. I cant upload something im not proud of.

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      3. Well, everyone works differently, everyone’s got diffeent goals, there’s no need to compare yourself with everyone else… πŸ˜‰ for example, I don’t consider I upload regularly either… If I get inspiration to write something, I upload it, but if I’m in a funk, or am busy experiencing other things in life, well that’s fine too.. Pushing for results won’t lead anywhere πŸ˜‰

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      4. Yea i think i get that now. Like sometimes i am really enjoying my day and ive been really busy and i get in and i just sleep. Other days im not so busy but im with my family just watching tv and well id rather not be on my phone writing posts. Because i dont want to seem rude plus the amount of effort put into them wouldnt be to my liking. So i think i need to just accept that if i find something to write about ill keep a note, then when i have time work on it. But not take that long that i lose the passion to write about it. Cos sometimes i edit and rewrite that much that i forget the point and inspiration behind it all.

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      5. That actually describes me perfectly. I am exactly like that. I may be walking on the street, I get the inspiration and I jot it down on my phone or on my notebook. But I have noticed the same, sometimes when I leave it too long, the feelings aren’t there afterall. But you know, on the otherhand, I don’t think it’s right to get obsessive about it. Even if you let a good idea ‘get away’ I’m sure another good idea will come along. And also, usually for the ones you’re really proud of, the inspiration never goes away πŸ˜‰

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  2. aloha Robyn. this is my first read here. so if I’m way off in this comment, you may be able to understand why. writing for me isn’t about creating a masterpiece every time i write or post. it’s about going in and writing every day whether i feel like it or am inspired, or not. it’s simply getting lost in the fun of β€œdoing”, until i find my way out, into what i like. i encourage and invite you to keep clattering the keys daily. and saving it all. and posting too. that’s how we find ourselves and who we are. eventually we find who we want to become. that’s then simple; be what you want to become in your writing. if you’re not sure how to do that, then pretend you are until you realize you are exactly what you’ve gone after in what you are doing. maybe most important of all, do what’s fun. because if it’s fun, you’ll want to keep doing it. be fun and fun on. aloha r.

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    1. Hey! Welcome to my blog and thankyou for your input. I really enjoy the creative aspect of writing. Once i get into it,it usually flows easily and i can write something. It would surely be acceptable, people wouldn’t dissaprove i know this. It’s myself that isn’t happy. This is what i need to get past. I want to be able to post daily, but i need to relax and write with less pressure on myself. Be happy with anything i manage to string together. I know this and i believe in time I’ll learn to do this. I almost certainly pretend. I have no idea what I’m doing, but if i continue acting like i do i think I’ll be okay πŸ™‚ x

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  3. You’ve heard the phrase: “You are your own worst critic”? πŸ˜‰

    We’d all like to write the ‘perfect’ post – none of us ever achieves it!

    People don’t really want to read a perfect post anyway- for one things it makes them feel a bit inferior – most want a post they can criticise or find some small flaw with. Who are we to disappoint the masses? πŸ™‚

    What you wrote above will really connect with a lot of people out there, they will be able to easily relate.

    Now write a post about how you managed to overcome all the crap long enough to put this post up – and remember how you did it, and keep on doing it – or not – it’s your blog/life not mine! πŸ˜‰

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    1. This made me smile! I find i often relate to the more personal, imperfect posts. They feel more human and i feel i connect with the writer more. I just dont want to seem amateurish, or put bad quality posts out there.

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      1. Smiling is good – Great even. We should all spend more of our time doing it. πŸ™‚

        No one really wants that ! πŸ™‚ It’s good if we can take a little pride in what we choose to show of ourselves to the world.

        It can cause us trouble however when the expectations we put on ourselves far exceed those others ask of us. (or even of themselves) πŸ˜‰

        Being human can often mean being more like other humans – only the Divine never make errors. πŸ˜‰

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      2. I tend to agree. I also find you can sometimes put and unachievable version of ourself online at times and strugglw to maintain that ideal.

        Its all a little overwhelming at times. I think taking a step back and letting ideas come to me is the best thing i can do.

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      3. I found the same thing – so we MUST be on the right track πŸ˜‰ lately i’ve started to have to rethink my blogname… the idea was to find a way to bring ALL together, now rethinking it i have doubt that that can ever be possible (or even an Ideal goal) 😦

        If you come up against a brick wall that prevents movement forward then taking a step or two backwards gives you a better perspective from which to figure out how to proceed! Sounds like a good plan to me! πŸ™‚

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      4. Thankyou. You give some really good advice, also i changed my blog name three days after starting my blog. But i dont think your goal isnt ideal. I write on here so i can form a positive community. And so people feel less alone. I dont think your goal is as impossible as you think. This is a great place for bringing people together, this is one of the most positive platforms ive been on! Everyone is lovely and supportive and just genuinely nice. I think you are aiming for a really brilliant thing!

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  4. Thank you Robyn, your comments are greatly appreciated. πŸ™‚

    You’re right – the blogging community are largely very friendly, positive and helpful!

    My thinking on my blogname was not that i no longer have the desire to unite as many people as possible via the unlimited power of mutual love and respect, which of course is a worthy objective or goal for myself or any of us.

    It rather came from my Primary source of inspiration, or my recent realisation arising from it, the words of Christ in the New Testament and it’s last book: Revelation.

    The Word of God tells us in the end not everyone is united in a single group, rather there is a division of humanity.

    This does not mean though that i can’t try to get as many as i can to think like me and be united on the topic. πŸ™‚

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    1. I understand better now, sorry i originally thought something had happened to make you lose hope in doing that. But i see your point now. And i think a lot of people will like you i think cos you seem really nice😁

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      1. Appearances can sometimes be deceptive! πŸ˜‰

        But i thank you kindly for the compliment. πŸ™‚

        From your posts and replies i can say the same about you Robyn!

        (btw… i used love as a shortened nick-name on WP but in real life my name is Bob ( from Robert) )

        Take care! πŸ™‚

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  5. This is exactly how I feel. The want to write is there but there is no inspiration. Living a life with anxiety has lead me down a pretty boring road. I spend most of my time on my own, doing my own things which doesn’t make for good writing.

    I like your writing and I like your blog. I hope you find the inspiration to continue writing! πŸ™‚

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